My hair is making a run for it... or a fall for it. It is coming out in clumps. I am going to try to wait until after clinic on Tuesday to shave it. Hopefully I don't look like Gollum from Lord of the Rings.
I didn't really realize how much hair I have. WOW! I made a huge pile in the shower but still have managed to make a real mess aruond the house. This is not a clean process. It is taking all I have not to shave it now.
I did end up purchasing a wig... from online. It is cute, something I can wear to clinic or out to dinner or such. It is not high end, but it will work for the short time. I hope to only have to wear it for the next 6 months or so.
So they cancelled the NYC marathon. I understand why... I am confused as to why so late... but I understand. But not to worry, every muscle in my body hurts. I feel like I have run the marathon... well I guess ran it yesterday. It hurts to move. I am not sleeping well. I am blaming it on the bed too. We are going to have to replace our matress - damn it! I am going to have to take up a collection to replace it... maybe I can sell my hair. :)
When I get sick I get scared. It's scary. It's not easy to think about. All I want to do is survive. I want to be healthy. It also makes the prospect of the next couple of rounds of chemo that much more daunting. I don't want to be bald. I don't want to be sick. But even more, I don't want to die for a long time so I will continue to do this.
The exhaustion is not nearly as bad as it was last time... I think surgery had exacerbated it... but it is a day later. I have to teach tomorrow and have to drive to Yankton for a doctors appointment. I am not looking forward to the drive. I love teaching though. I hope to just make it to class. I am going to try to talk Kyle into driving to Yankton for me :).
On a positive note - looks like just an achy jaw this time not lockjaw. Some nausea but no vomiting and just general fatigue and achiness. Hopefully it gets better and better.
Okay done complaining now - Oh and congrats to my cousin who got married yesterday!!!